Friday, 25 May 2012

It started out as a feeling...and (then it) grew louder and louder, 'til it was a battle cry

Have you ever had a song just speak to you? Can you see that song reflected in your life? Whilst "The Call" has been one of my favourite songs since it featured in Prince Caspian, I've only just begun to realise it has mirrored my life over the last few months, even years...metaphorically speaking, of course! Here's my interpretation of the song

It started out as a feeling  ..... That it was time for change, I didn't quite now what but I knew I needed to make changes in my life 
Which then grew into a hope.....I realised (finally) what I was good at - training and coaching people
Which then turned into a quiet thought....My brother completed TEFL and recommended it to me. I started looking into how I could do TEFL last summer. 
Which then turned into a quiet word......I started the i-to-i TEFL course in September

And then that word grew louder and louder...In February I completed it and began to look for a job
'Til it was a battle cry....On the 17 April 2012, I took the huge risk (with only a VERBAL offer- I'd my interview at 7am and at the end was offered the job) to resign from the company I have worked with for almost 6 years and on the 17 May 2012 I will finish there. On the 25th May I started my flight to Korea to begin [My] Call. 

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye.................I'll come home to Ireland, I'll visit America again...I just don't know when exactly. It's not goodbye - just "see you later". 

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before..................Yes, this is a big and scary change. Right now I am handling it but I have had to make big and scary changes before - Boarding School, Moving to America, Going to College, Moving back to Ireland, Starting my first "proper" job.

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war......It's not a war exactly, but it's going to have it's tough moments. I need to remember that and move on. I might be thousands of miles away from my familyand friends but it was the same when I was in America. Luckily there for the first year I had one of my sisters with me. Now, I am very lucky to have my brother with me for the first few months. He is "my friend" in the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light..........................It's only for one year - and if I can't manage to spend one year away from home and doing something that I think I really will enjoy - then there is no hope for me. I may as well just give up now. So that's my star whose light I will follow - it's only for a year

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too 
Doesn't mean that you have to forget...............Towards the end of every adventure, big or small, you get that feeling that something needs to change. You don't know yet what it is, and when you figure it out, it doesn't mean that you forget or ignore your other old adventures

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes............Instead you have to let them inspire you as that is what keeps you strong and helps you to stay your ground. You might think I'm mad but every time I feel overwhelmed, I'll just remind myself (and hopefully it works!) - you managed 4 years at Wayne and you survived: You can do 1 year in Korea

PS The title of this post, and indeed the entire post was inspired by Regina Spektor's "The Call"...which is a family favourite. 
PPS Editing this in Abu Dhabi so full stops are in odd places because for some reason my laptop is no longer recognising that it is Irish

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